It was just a couple weeks ago I found myself thinking “No! No more. I can’t take on anything more.”
Over a month ago we moved from our little rented house in the country, into town on the grounds of the ministry we are now serving with.
Since then I have found myself busier than ever.
I won’t bore you with my crazy schedule… But a person can only take on so much, right? I knew (or thought) I was reaching my limit.
It wasn’t long after those “No!” thoughts started, I found myself saying yes, instead.
My friend was getting ready to leave for her annual trip home to Canada, and I had already offered to care for her 8 year old son while she was gone. Him and Kayden are best buds and I knew it wouldn’t be make much of a difference having him around. He’s a good kid, and the boys would have fun being together. What’s one more? I thought. A couple days before she left, much to her delight and surprise, she was asked by social services to care for a 9 month old baby girl, for a “few days”. Knowing it would be hard to find some one to care for her, with such short notice, I was quick to say “Yes! I’ll take her too!”
Kind if a crazy decision, especially since my husband was going to be gone for the entire two weeks she was gone.
I would be parenting 6 kids.
Now, I know I can’t take on everything( really, I do know this) and in my day to day life I need to find a healthy balance of where I spend my time…
I never want to close a door to a blessing God brings my way. Even if the blessing is hidden in the middle of a crazy chaotic mess.
I am not super mom, and I do not have it all together or figured out.
Saying yes, is not about me, it’s about Him. When I say yes to something that looks hard, challenging, and even impossible… I have no choice but to trust Him more. And when I do, I get to see miracles happen….
Or the big box of donated baby stuff dropped off at my door, 3 days after baby girl came to stay by some one who had no idea I was taking care of a baby. It’s contents were exactly what I needed … Formula, baby cereal, and baby food.
Or seeing my kids all work together, doing their best to help me, and generally having a good attitude. We did have a couple bad grumpy days, of course, but we had way more good getting along days. That is a huge miracle!
And the simple fact that my 3 year old, slightly territorial “baby” girl, not once showed any type of resentment or jealousy the entire time I took care of a very sick, time consuming baby. She was an amazing “big sister”!
Maybe the biggest miracle if all was the changes going inside my own heart. When I said yes, I was saying no to me. No to what was comfortable, convienent, easy, and predictable. I had no idea that I was saying yes to long nights, more doctors visits than I can count, a messy house, and absolutely no “me” time…
Yet through it all I knew more peace, joy, and strength than I could have ever imagined.
When I had every reason to feel run down, exhausted and sorry for myself, I didn’t… Like at all. How is that even possible?
I have seen God at work in so many ways the past couple weeks, I feel so blessed!
I believe in a God who is crazy about His kids. So it’s not about me being this super amazing person or Mom. No. It’s about a super amazing God just loving his kids, giving us all what we need, when we need it. I can take no credit for the miracles I have seen or been a part of.
A simple “yes” from me, and He did the rest.